Thursday, November 6, 2014

Losing Mentality

I love PvP in my MMO.  As a result, I have suffered my share of losses.  I played Order on Badlands in Warhammer Online and we were usually at a disadvantage.  That's fine, I can accept being the underdog.  I don't mind losing.  However, even I have my limits.

I play a Trooper on The Ebon Hawk.  During the times I play, we lose a lot of warzones.  My unscientific sampling says we win about 20% of the time.  That's losing 8 / 10 matches usually.  That's a lot of losing.

At first, I was fine with it.  However, lately, it has really started to affect the way I view my time in game.  Going into matches, I have no expectation of winning.  Without that hope, I tend to focus on other things, like the rewards given for completing a warzone.  That path leads to the dark side.  I end up just wanting to get the warzone over as quick as possible.

There is, of course, steps I can take to turn this around.  Joining like minded players and running pre-mades is the obvious answer.  However, my casual style makes this difficult.  Sometimes I just am able to jump on for a match or two.  That's my problem, not the games.  I could also just play my Agent more and hopefully win 8 / 10.  I don't like giving up either, even if that is how I am starting to feel.